Those who are gonna be confused if it’s about death or family, it’s about me afraid of being far away from my family.
“Away.”
One of the most horrible dreams I’ve ever seen. I was dying and I was afraid.
I don’t know why but this Navratri I had too many thoughts on Death. I was finding my answers in Novels, ‘Quora’, and ‘Bhagvad Gita’. (I got the idea of my next story from those thoughts and question-answers). Even after reading ‘Gita’ again and again every year, there’s always something new you’ll find in it. Your answers will be there, that’s for sure. I recently got to know that Bhagatsingh was an atheist and still he used to keep ‘Gita’ with him all the time!
So, I was too confused. What to choose for my career? For me, family is too important, but my future seems still hazy to me. I’m living my college life, and I’m only sure of myself that I’m gonna do something good and nothing else. Once I had a thought of living my life outside India, but I was not sure. Here came the question of family. Everything is too perfect here, and I also want to leave the comfort zone. The confusion was: what if my family is my life! I mean, what if leaving everything behind is not the right option? Then I thought of myself living the particular life that everyone lives, and again came the question of the purpose of my life. On one shiny day, I got the idea: just go with the flow. Again, I got confused. What if that’s weakness?
After analysis of a few books and inspirations, after starting ‘Gita’ again, I’m finally okay now. Not knowing is okay, I’ve already said that in one of my previous blogs. I was being sad for no reason at all; there’s after all nothing I can do about my death! Let’s live then! Until that time, I must live everything. I must visit my dream places. I must spend my quality time with my family. And at the end, when I’m gonna be sad, for leaving my family to visit different places or for spending my time with my family instead of wandering around and exploring the nature, I must remind myself to live that moment. ‘Move on’: that’s what I keep in my mind and that’s what I shall keep in my mind.
We are emotional being. It’s just the matter of family. I was born in a healthy family environment. I’ve always celebrated Diwali with whole of my family, and I’ve also been here once with only my parents- without grandparents and cousins and all. So, I was very little when I got to know the importance of family. I know people who don’t know a thing about joint family; who even don’t live in a family! Not their fault, but they don’t understand the value of relationships and they become emotional fools.
A beautiful thing my sister said to me at the time of my failure: “It’s a little problem. I’ve been there. Thank god, we have a beautiful family unlike others.” I was relieved. That huge failure didn’t then seem bigger after realizing that I had a perfect family, a support to me. So, today, when I become confuse on these ‘future’ things, I think it is harder for me to decide my destiny than other people as I’ve got this comforting environment, but this confusion is my happiness.
PS. You must have got the reason behind me putting this title!
Filmy Time:
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“Where are you going?”“Away.”
One of the most horrible dreams I’ve ever seen. I was dying and I was afraid.
I don’t know why but this Navratri I had too many thoughts on Death. I was finding my answers in Novels, ‘Quora’, and ‘Bhagvad Gita’. (I got the idea of my next story from those thoughts and question-answers). Even after reading ‘Gita’ again and again every year, there’s always something new you’ll find in it. Your answers will be there, that’s for sure. I recently got to know that Bhagatsingh was an atheist and still he used to keep ‘Gita’ with him all the time!
So, I was too confused. What to choose for my career? For me, family is too important, but my future seems still hazy to me. I’m living my college life, and I’m only sure of myself that I’m gonna do something good and nothing else. Once I had a thought of living my life outside India, but I was not sure. Here came the question of family. Everything is too perfect here, and I also want to leave the comfort zone. The confusion was: what if my family is my life! I mean, what if leaving everything behind is not the right option? Then I thought of myself living the particular life that everyone lives, and again came the question of the purpose of my life. On one shiny day, I got the idea: just go with the flow. Again, I got confused. What if that’s weakness?
After analysis of a few books and inspirations, after starting ‘Gita’ again, I’m finally okay now. Not knowing is okay, I’ve already said that in one of my previous blogs. I was being sad for no reason at all; there’s after all nothing I can do about my death! Let’s live then! Until that time, I must live everything. I must visit my dream places. I must spend my quality time with my family. And at the end, when I’m gonna be sad, for leaving my family to visit different places or for spending my time with my family instead of wandering around and exploring the nature, I must remind myself to live that moment. ‘Move on’: that’s what I keep in my mind and that’s what I shall keep in my mind.
We are emotional being. It’s just the matter of family. I was born in a healthy family environment. I’ve always celebrated Diwali with whole of my family, and I’ve also been here once with only my parents- without grandparents and cousins and all. So, I was very little when I got to know the importance of family. I know people who don’t know a thing about joint family; who even don’t live in a family! Not their fault, but they don’t understand the value of relationships and they become emotional fools.
A beautiful thing my sister said to me at the time of my failure: “It’s a little problem. I’ve been there. Thank god, we have a beautiful family unlike others.” I was relieved. That huge failure didn’t then seem bigger after realizing that I had a perfect family, a support to me. So, today, when I become confuse on these ‘future’ things, I think it is harder for me to decide my destiny than other people as I’ve got this comforting environment, but this confusion is my happiness.
PS. You must have got the reason behind me putting this title!
Filmy Time:
“Happiness only real when shared.”
-Into The Wild (2007)
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