“Main apne dad ke paise kharch karta hoon…”
–Wake Up Sid (2009)
I’ve become this since a while. “Main apne paise kharch karti hoon…”
and I do nothing else. (feels like it!)
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| Wake Up Sid (2009) |
1.
Goa with friends… “Look, people!” (I’m still
proud XD)
2.
Paa once said, “travel only after you start
earning”, and that’s where the ego jumped on. ‘_’ (I’ve travelled a lot, but it’s
always lesser than our expectations!)
No, I’m not yet getting any salary, it’s just the stipend, but I
thought it would be okay to explore new things and learn to save money and have
my family and friends to get some fun together – like – “Puri zindagi tumhare
paise se ghuma hoon; aaj meri bari hai…” (-Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara) but lately
it’s been just that! I’ve reduced a lot of extra spending, but maybe it’s the
time that’s affecting me. I know I enjoy being busy, but the work seems nothing
compared to old days.
‘In Search of Work’, I’m not really. I have started learning Sanskrit and
Italian. I think it’s good to travel a place when you know the language and
culture, and that’s why I chose these languages. The Sanskrit has been in my
list since a few years, and I’ve got the time to know my roots. Italian,
because it’s easy and Italy has been the number one in my bucket list. The book
editing is slower than I expected, but I’m keeping it continued. Haven’t read a
book since long; haven’t meditated; haven’t really been into my routine!
The point is: it gets hard sometimes. The way you feel, the thoughts
you have about your life, drench you in the pool of nothingness, and what you
do is just keep swimming without realizing that your body has gone numb due to
the cold water. At the end, you think that it’s good that you survived, but did
you really? Does ‘surviving only’ make sense? The trip to the greens of South
India was like any other trip, perhaps lesser than other trips. But every time
we break the routine, we realize that it was not supposed to be the ‘greatest
of all’, it was just supposed to be something more than the leveled.
Being in search of work is doing the routine again, with realizing
that you’re doing it. Yes, it will happen what is supposed to happen, but it
matters when you realize that you lived that part; it matters when your work
gets appreciated by your boss rather than just having it done because your boss
asked for it; it matters that the lover gets a flower from you because it was
the routine to meet every day at the lunch and this time you thought it would
be great to have the Parathas with a flower and a beautiful smile; it matters
every damn time when you sit at the dining table and rather than just having
the dinner, you discuss on how the day has been to your family and how the
world is changing (for no reason at all). Work and the extra work will consume
a lot from your daily time; so, be prepared if you’re in search of work, the
actual work, because it will be there, with some satisfaction and a pinch of
happiness.
‘Go with the flow’ is a way to solace yourself when you’re tired of trying
to make it changed and it doesn’t be that way, but it should not be applied to
your everyday life. You’re not okay with the unjust, with the uncertainty and
wildness. You have limits and that’s how you can’t let it just be as it is! You
put an effort to make it happen – you put an effort to get the Chandrayan land
on the moon’s side where no space shuttle has ever been, and it may take
years and years, but you can’t say it was supposed to happen/the mission
was supposed to get failed!
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| Wake Up Sid (2009) |
The preparations may get slower and in between
those time, you may think that the work has always been this; but it’s time to
appreciate… It’s time to have that old work in your hands and complete it with
some cheers… It’s time to get excited for the new thing that the world has
never seen… It’s time to write the book which the world has never read… It’s
time to talk to your close ones and have some stargazing and discuss
philosophies… It’s time to be extrovert and spend some money and travel when
you feel like it rather than just getting it planned for the particular holidays…
Let me say, it’s time to start that routine of sitting before the small temple
of your home and time to wake up early and sharing tea with family than taking
the star bucks’ cup in your hand… It’s time to enjoy the sleep; look, it’s
time, 10 pm!
Visual time: Bye… it’s no Netflix day today; it’s time for some
Courage the Cowardly Dog!
